11 June 2002 - 9:08 pm
My therapist advised that I should start taking medication. Iím worried about that, tho. I know itís supposed to increase the chemicals in my head, thus making me less sad, but I donít want to be so happy that I annoy people. Iíve been that annoying before, but itís usually only for brief periods of time and I know to stop when I begin to annoy myself. I donít want to not be aware of how annoying I can be. I still want to be witty. I still want to be me.
And itís supposed to lower my sex drive, too. Not enough to make me a monk, mind you, just keep me from wanting to hump anything with three legs and a heartbeat.