23 June 2002 - 7:25 pm
I don't remember the last time I was happy. There have been times when I've been amused, but I don't remember the last time I was happy.
I took a break today and stood outside. I faced the Sun with my eyes closed, and marveled at the fact that it'd been so long since I'd felt the hand of God on my face. I started to cry, but I wasn't sad. For a brief moment, staring up at the sun, I was truly happy. I went back inside, back to work, already missing the Sun.