17 June 2002 - 12:05 am
It's hard sometimes. I was talking to my mom the other night and she told me to "snap out of it." I wish it was that easy. I wish I could explain what's going on in my head. Explain that everything that makes sense now will be completely foreign to me after my Mood Swing makes that audible, and by now quite familiar, WHOOOSH on it's way by.
When I'm sad, it's usually over something that I don't have or don't see myself ever having in my life. I focus too much on the future. I cry about not having things I know I'm not ready for. And it's all so simple now. This is stuff I Know. But catch me on a bad day ... and you can feel the wind from the Swing as it goes by.